Entiendo

Well, life has been rough, I’m not going to lie. I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. I haven’t really had anything to say, and well I’m not sure I do now.
My father passed away a couple of Sundays ago on the 8th and 3:26 in the morning. It was, as I consider, the worst thing to ever happen to me. I know my father and I didn’t always get along, but it has completely broken my heart to know that I will never see him again. All I keep replaying in my head is all of the times we used to play wrestle, and dancing with him, and him teaching me how to use a saw. Then how much he loved Erik, and used to talk to him when he was a baby. I hate knowing that Erik will not know my dad. He was a good man, and I miss him more than I can say. It’s been harder because some people have been very inconsiderate that are supposed to have been close to me. Then Brandon and I keep getting shit because we’re not doing what other people want us to do. We’re getting like threatened. It’s such bullshit. I wish they would stop. Why does everyone try to make us feel guilty if we can’t make a family gathering? Jesus. I’m glad my mom and Chris aren’t like that, and are loving and supportive.
School has sucked. Bad. I’m having a hard time concentrating. I had a exam in nutrition last night, and it was horrible. I knew I was going to bomb it. Even though I studied a ton (and I’m not a studier) I was having a hard time retaining the info because my mind is somewhere else. I hate this! I hope it gets easier, someday.
At least we’ll be back in FL in April. Chris better get her butt in gear with this wedding stuff though! Ah!!!